It is a weird kind of mercy that you speak of. We are all set up heading for hell in the firstplace. And if we dont acknowledge jesus as the savior, we get our just punishment in hell.

When I think of human beings being held in a state of eternal misery, it looks like the most cruel and un thinkable thing I could imagine, I find it difficult believing that this is a fate that will be put upon billions and billions of people...

Christianity teaches that people are cruel, wicked, and worthy of eternal torment based on who they are in relation to god. I look at people close to me, and I just do not intelectually relate to a god who says "this guy deserves my eternal damnation or sp called justice."

I find it morally im[possible to give the christian world view the "A OK"

you mean this is it?

this is the master plan?

this is the great mystery revealed? that we are in some tragic, desolate and gloomy existence, so foul that our creator had to kill himself to appease his own wrath at us for being so belligerant?

I look at god and see a two faced psycho. the same god would, at the drop of a dime, unleash an eternety of torment at each and every one of us, if we dont bow down and start praising him. On the other hand, if we accept him and his plan, we are showered with annointening until our cups runneth over. Why, he even helps us in our finances and tax returns... (which seem to pale in metaphysical weight to the options of eternal peacefulness versus eternal misery that the "lost" as non christians are called, must go over in their minds)

IT seems that billions of his creations are going to hell, why?

because he deems that every single human on earth deserves it. We are incapable of pleasing him. infact our best efforts are "like rags and filth" to him.

I dont get it.

he wants to see us saved. but what are we saved from? his eternal wrath?

so every unsaved is an excuse to keep god angry.

if everyone got saved... where would gods wrath go?

none of it really makes sense or adds up to me. and I am about as close to getting "bun out" as one can get. (having a "thought disorder" and a hell of a guuilty conscience etc)