Be careful. You would not be just depending on "hope" if it is right. If you feel in doubt about what you are doing STOP DOING IT!!!. When you are doing something Godly and right, what you feel inside is Peace. Be still and know God. God is in your calm, your Joy, your best intent, and most of all your LOVE, not in your anxiety. Meditation should take you to a peaceful place. Peace is wher God is.

[QUOTE=sebas4920] but i hope i didnt sell my soul to satan or something freaky. QUOTE]